This article is dedicated to all the aspiring moms who have taken a break from their careers as they chose the path of motherhood.
There was a time not very long ago when I dreamed of a respectable job wherein I could use all my academic knowledge that I learned hard all my life, in theory, to be finally put into practice.
From the moment I topped my college and secured 3rd Rank to the University in MBA, I only imagined myself giving PowerPoint presentations to the top management of a Fortune 500 company in a crisp ironed blazer and they nodding their head in appreciation at every slide I discuss!
I still remember my Director in MBA telling me on our Graduation Day that after 10 years if she happens to meet me, she would like to see me achieve something in life. I suppose she wouldn’t want to see me carrying two children in my arms.
Aspiring Mom – Torn between two worlds
Today here I am exactly after 10 years – a mother, 2 children, holding one in hand, carrying the other in arm .…and all the above-mentioned ambitions are buried deep inside me. No more aspiring dreams. I hardly get enough sleep at a stretch to even dream one!
Now my morning confusion is not about what to wear but what healthy food to cook for my children. My worries are not about meeting any deadlines but how to keep my children and my house germ-free.
My passion today lies no more around learning new management concepts but how to make triangle chapatis so that my daughter approves it and eat 2 instead of 1!
My free time now does not go into researching companies but into researching what different color poops in baby mean…
A day seems victorious when I see my baby’s diaper with soft poop!
My heart smiles when I see my daughter relishing home-cooked meals.
Happiness is no longer shopping, as even bathroom trips seem guilty!
Dressing up and makeup are way out of reach and salon is a luxury as days pass by without combing hair!
Chat with friends is no longer gossips, but home remedies for cold and constipation, baby food recipes which usually end up with call you back in 5 minutes!
I am a happy mom – there is no doubt! I am busy in my daily chores, supported by an understanding husband, but somewhere deep within lies a chord that’s unsettled, not at peace with oneself, asking for more, a call that’s kept on hold.
But soon in future, the day will come when my kids will grow up, will not be clinging on me as much and that day I will come out of my cocoon, stand high, answer the calling and achieve those unfinished dreams.